Hello? Anybody out there...

Yes, I know. Its been over a year since I last posted on here and I wouldn't at all be surprise if no one reads my ramblings anymore. Mind you, the pictures are still pretty good, even if I do say so myself!

'So', I hear the lone voice down the back ask, 'What have you been doing all this time??' Well sadly, I am rather low on dirty stories. Yes I know, if I am going to be on a break for this long I should at least be bring back some sexy stories...sadly no! (Well I do have a couple up my sleeve)

Life is a funny thing, isn't it? The more things change, often times the more they stay the same.  There have been a few changes in the last twelve months and no doubt I will fill you all in on those soon enough, and yes that does include a new 'bit on the side'.

A rather large change has been on the work front, and that is something that is keeping me busy enough that my posting is probably not going to be too regular (must borrow myself some of those monkeys off Riff, they work for him!)

Anyway that is enough for a 'first post back'....see you all again soon!

Yet another catch up post...

You know, I feel like all I do on this blog is pop up HNT's (sporadically) and write catch up posts. I really need to get my shit together and start writing some decent stuff. And I do have decent stuff to write about! Anyway, back to the catch up....

If you look around, you may notice a few subtle changes. I went through a moment of thinking I was going to start afresh, or maybe change the name of the blog, or maybe even just can it altogether. In the end I decided that, well I like the name, I didn't really want to start afresh and I love writing too much to get rid of it. Besides, my history is what makes me, well me. It stays along with the blog. But I have had fun makes some changes and adding some new bits.

Last weekend The H and I went away for a fantastic weekend away together. We had a blast spending time together without the kids around and the stress of work. Two whole days of just us....bliss! Of course we couldn't resist the opportunity to spend two nights exploring the swingers club that we visited last time we were up there for our wedding anniversary. On the first night, we boldly and bravely swapped with another couple! Interesting experience and not without its own wee speed bump afterwards, but never-the-less, very exciting! The second night was more about hanging out, meeting new people, reacquainting ourselves with ones we had met the night before and watching....oh I do love watching, I'm such a voyeur!

Unfortunately we didn't get the chance to take heaps of awesome pictures for upcoming HNT's, we were ummm distracted by other stuff...and talking about pictures, we have been offered an opportunity to have a free 3 - 4 hour photo shoot with a professional photographer, free because he wants to expand his portfolio using 'real' people....the catch? doing it naked and getting naughty with each other at the same time. Out of curiosity....how many of you out there would do this? I would be interested to know if you would??

That pretty much covers the 'catch up' I have a few other bits and pieces of news but I don't want to spoil posts before I even write them!

Yup...A real post!

Yes, I know. All I have been posting lately has been HNT's. I have been having a wee bit of summer hiatus. That and I have had sod all to blog about, I still have sod all to blog about but I have missed writing and now instead will write about nothing. Well I probably could come up with a few things but they aren't all about sex, which this, being what I thought was a blog about sex, means that we could be diverting course ever so slightly...

Oh don't worry, I will still throw in a bit of random sex and definitely some good HNT picture so you need not all desert me! Although, I have come to the conclusion that I have very much fallen into the trap of writing for my audience. It happens to the best of us as many bloggers will tell you. I started this blog as a way of getting off my chest stuff going on in my life. Yes, the dirty, deviant, sexy, fun stuff. But it was stuff that I need to vent about. Then you get a follower or two and they start leaving comments and before you know it, your writing what you think everyone wants to read, not about what you really want to write about. With me so far? good.

So, I am going back to writing about what I want to write about. It may or may not involve nudity or offensive themes....But first a wee catch up. The H is good, adorable even. Driving me nuts and to orgasm on a regular basis. Mr Big is gone. Why? who knows, no real explanation was given. It is always nice to know why, but I suppose at the end of the day it really is irrelevant, the result is still the same. No new ones are lurking in the shrubbery or my inbox at this time.

I have had a rather fun summer hiatus. I have managed to get into a ton of mischief without getting arrested...always a bonus and because this is no longer a strictly 'sex' blog, y'all will get to hear about it...lucky you, or maybe not! Its been a wee bit of a learning experience too...

Things I have learnt this summer:

• Do not question the right of a 6'4" drag queen in 5" heels to use the ladies loo in a gay bar and what ever you do, don't tell him you hope he left the seat down! He threaten to pop me in his handbag, so I squealed like a girl and locked myself in a stall.
• Replying to a text dumping you is a very, very poor idea after drinking four triple Black Russians. The next morning when you check your phone you will resemble the Italian flag...green then white then red, in that order!
• Nude sunbathing may result bits that you never knew you could get burnt, very much getting burnt. And on that note, it is incredibly difficult to rub SPF70 into your fanny without looking like your playing with yourself.
• Smoking Mexican tripping weed will not get you high, no matter how much of it you smoke.

Lost libido's and returning lovers...

I appear to have lost my libido....I strongly suspect I left it somewhere in Thailand, along with the lust fairy [You know her, that evil little imp that sits on my shoulder encouraging me into all sorts of mischief]. I know, very careless of me and if any of you happen across either of them, please return asap!

But it appears mine isn't the only one that's gone AWOL. The H has lost his too....quite possibly in Thailand as well, he doesn't remember when or where he put it down, but its gone! As a result the marital bed has been an oasis of calm and snoring lately.....nothing rockin our headboard! Ah, nothing that a bottle of wine and some good porn shouldn't fix!

The returning lover? well no prizes for guessing who that may be....Yup, you guessed right, Mr Big [see I told you no prizes, it was too easy] As yet its not so much of a return, since I haven't seen him in six weeks, but an agreement of continuance. How did that happen? Well I pretty much told him what I told you all in this post. And that was all well and good. I got a ' nice knowing you, must catch up over a coffee sometime in the distant future' response.

Then three days later I received the mother of all bollockings! Everything from 'How do you know that I don't want the same thing as you' to 'How dare you assume what I'm thinking when you wont even talk to me or ask me' and oh-so-many more. The cynic inside me says that a horny, single guy will say and promise an awful lot to keep a fuck buddy. Not as green as I am cabbage looking. So, for now, I am keeping him around. No expectations.

Bursting bubbles....

I am a bubble person, I live in a bubble. No one comes into my bubble and, with great reluctance will I ever step out of it. I have never been a good communicator of my thoughts and feeling to those around me and to those that are close to me. My husband has for many, many years [well since the beginning of our relationship really] told me that I have put up walls around myself and I will not let anyone in. So that is what I mean when I say I live in a bubble.

Something happened in my life a while ago that catapulted me out of my bubble....spectacularly, and life hasn't quite been the same since. Indeed this is not a bad thing, I needed to learn to communicate more and better with the people in my life and I have notice that my blog has/is reflecting this change in me.

As I'm opening up more to those in my life I am doing so here as well. I find that hard, very hard for one that has lived in a bubble for so long.

When I first started this blog, it was only ever written with intention of sharing tales of my sexual adventures inside and outside of my marriage. My random thoughts on infidelity, sex and relationships between men and women. The things that I needed to get out there but were unsuitable for discussion in polite company. Infidelity is a hard secret to keep and very rarely do we have someone we can share it with, all of it. A blog allows for that wonderful, cathartic outlet.

So dear readers, I ask you to bear with me as I step out of my bubble and let all of you into my life and share with you the extraordinary changes and events that have shaped my life this year.I promise I will be back soon with titillating tales of my sexual adventures but first there is some stuff I need to get off my chest!

The winds of change....

The winds of change are blowing in my life, a gentle breeze is pushing one man away and bringing others in. My blog is a little bit random with all sorts kinda chucked in and in no particular order, so I thought I would bring you up to date with where its all currently at.

My relationship with the bit on the side is almost at the end. It was inevitable that it was going to end one day, as these things do. Although I have pushed it to its conclusion so I could move on. I shall explain. When the bit on the side and I first started our adventure, it was all on. Anywhere, any time, we couldn't get enough of each other and there was nothing that we didn't do or try. It was passionate and lust-fuelled, as these things are and should be.

Then reality kicked in for him, he was cheating and he wasn't too comfortable with that. We stopped having sex and just kept to 'messing around'. Oddly enough oral sex, blow jobs etc. according to him were fine, actually having sex with me was 'too much like cheating'. I haven't even tried to figure that one out but it didn't worry me, he was happy & I was happy. Given the limited circumstances of being able to get together, that was about all we could fit into the time & space available. All good.

So what has made me want to end it? The lack of sex? partially. No, its something far worse....the dreaded E word. Yup 'emotions'. I have known the bit on the side for about 6 years and we have been lovers for nearly 2 years. Our friendship has always fun, casual and based on a mutual interest in sex. But there has always been that 'something' else lurking there, just a bit beyond just pure lust. We both know its there and we both do everything to avoid acknowledging that its there. Just a little push, a little letting go, would be all it would take to send us catapulting beyond lust in to something more.

Over the passage of time, feelings have developed for him. I can't have feelings like this for another man. I have my husband who is my best friend, my soul mate, the other half that makes me whole. It just can't be. So I have created the end.

The bit on the side is currently sulking as I have told him I need sex and I am actively looking for it elsewhere. Did I tell him this hoping to get a reaction, hoping he might offer (even though I knew it wasn't in the offering) ? hell yeah, and it was probably an unkind thing to do. He took it well, all things considered. Asked if we would still chat and be friends, of course we will! Asked if we would still 'play around'? sorry Hun, I don't know, I can't answer that one yet.

So where to from here? Damn good question! That's the fun thing about life, you never know what's around the corner! I have found it very hard to write this post. I can write all day about sex, steamy encounter and all that kind of thing but I find it incredibly difficult to scratch beyond that surface to write and express how I feel, my emotions and bigger things.

Phew! that has you all caught up. Very soon I am hoping to introduce you to someone new........