HNT: The winter blues...

Winter is the time for comfort, for good food and warmth, for the touch of a friendly hand and for a talk beside the fire:  it is the time for home.  ~Edith Sitwell

It's fair to say that I am not a huge fan of winter, I most definitely prefer summer with the long days, hot weather, warm sea breezes and being able to get away with wearing as little as possible. But as the quote says, there are some lovely things about winter too!

Happy HNT all and don't forget to check out O's to see who else is playing along this week.

I opened my eyes to discover...

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I don't know...

I wrote a long venty post a while ago about men looking for NSA sex and how I thought that such a beast did not truly exist. [As a side note, go and read the comments, they are absolutely fantastic, better than the post itself!]

Florida Dom turned the question on me and asked 'What do I want?' It has taken me this long to post a reply because I have been giving this some very serious thought, my conclusion....I don't know.

I have a few experiences under my belt now, I have tried out a couple of different men and relationships/scenarios and I still don't know quite what I want. However I do know what I don't want. I do not want some cold, meaningless NSA fuck with some random guy. That is so not me.

I want someone that will be around for a while, someone who you can develop a level of mutual trust and friendship with. Do I want to go as far as having a secondary relationship again? I don't know, I am still feeling a bit gun shy on that one!

More than just a fuck and less than a relationship....leaves it pretty wide open eh? And this post is not a particularly good answer to what is a very thought provoking question!

HNT: Sensible...

Have you ever looked at a woman walking down the street in her every day clothes, maybe its her office uniform or perhaps a stylish, cute outfit to meet friends for lunch in. Have you ever looked at her and wondered to yourself what she is wearing underneath? What lurks under that sensible looking exterior?

Click the picture to see what I was wearing under my sensible exterior today...

Happy HNT all, don't forget to head over to O's to see who else is playing along this week!

I miss...

[This is one of those posts that you write, that ends up languishing in your drafts folder because you never quite find the right moment to post it, or indeed it never really needs posting. But sometimes, well sometimes you should push that publish button...]

I miss...

• The smell of his skin
• The way he used to make me laugh
• Lust, the way we lusted after each other and how that made me feel
• How I could really tell him my every dirty thought

I don't miss...

• How everything always had to be on his terms
• Being shut out
• The cold and careless way he treated me
• Wondering...

I fell in love with the relationship we had, how that made me feel, the excitement of it. I thought perhaps I was in love with him, but no, it was what we had not him. I miss that. I am sad that its gone and it will never be again. In the end though, the bad really did outweigh the good.

Yet another catch up post...

You know, I feel like all I do on this blog is pop up HNT's (sporadically) and write catch up posts. I really need to get my shit together and start writing some decent stuff. And I do have decent stuff to write about! Anyway, back to the catch up....

If you look around, you may notice a few subtle changes. I went through a moment of thinking I was going to start afresh, or maybe change the name of the blog, or maybe even just can it altogether. In the end I decided that, well I like the name, I didn't really want to start afresh and I love writing too much to get rid of it. Besides, my history is what makes me, well me. It stays along with the blog. But I have had fun makes some changes and adding some new bits.

Last weekend The H and I went away for a fantastic weekend away together. We had a blast spending time together without the kids around and the stress of work. Two whole days of just us....bliss! Of course we couldn't resist the opportunity to spend two nights exploring the swingers club that we visited last time we were up there for our wedding anniversary. On the first night, we boldly and bravely swapped with another couple! Interesting experience and not without its own wee speed bump afterwards, but never-the-less, very exciting! The second night was more about hanging out, meeting new people, reacquainting ourselves with ones we had met the night before and watching....oh I do love watching, I'm such a voyeur!

Unfortunately we didn't get the chance to take heaps of awesome pictures for upcoming HNT's, we were ummm distracted by other stuff...and talking about pictures, we have been offered an opportunity to have a free 3 - 4 hour photo shoot with a professional photographer, free because he wants to expand his portfolio using 'real' people....the catch? doing it naked and getting naughty with each other at the same time. Out of curiosity....how many of you out there would do this? I would be interested to know if you would??

That pretty much covers the 'catch up' I have a few other bits and pieces of news but I don't want to spoil posts before I even write them!

HNT: HNT 5th Birthday...

The theme to celebrate HNT's 5th birthday was to find your first or earliest you could find, HNT picture and post it up along with a recreation of that picture. For me, this wasn't so hard since I have only been participating in HNT's for 33 weeks. But in saying that, that first picture I used was actually taken in 2007! Its a picture I used to use as my profile picture on AFF. I think I managed to find nearly everything to duplicate the picture except for the lingerie...

Go check out O's to see who else is playing along this week.

HNT: My view...

As I slide my jeans over my hips, this is my view....I am thinking of you and of what we are about to do....

Happy HNT all! Now go and check out O's to see who else is playing along this week, Oooh and I heard he has the most fab MG this week :)